Push push push! (You better work, b**ch!)

My inspirational song that basically describes what I have to do in order to get where I want: I have to work. I will not sit on my a** and be unhealthy! In Britney's words: You want a hot body? ...You better work bitch! ...Now get to work bitch! (Sorry for the language! You get the point lol.)


I love this song! It pumps me up so much to rise above as a healthy woman and conquer everything and everyone that brought me down--including myself! I am going to get through this! In Katy's words: You held me down, but I got up. Get ready cause I've had enough. I see it all, I see it now: I got the eye of a tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire, cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar.

Anyway!

Man, I'm almost done with week 2 of Insanity! Wow--I never thought I would get this far. I almost quit yesterday but didn't (thinking about not doing my cardio recovery workout because of time constraints)! Why? Because I worked too hard to stop now!

Anyway, I did day 12 today: cardio power and resistance. I could barely do the around the world touch downs (or whatever they're called) during the second set of three circuits. However, I will say that I did at least push myself during the floor sprints--which I am super proud about! Yay.

Man.... I just need to accept the fact that Insanity will always break me before I get through the entire video. If any of you want to try it, be ready to be pushed past your comfort! You will be broken. Hence, I know I can't quit now because of how hard I've worked so far.

Not only that, but man... I am definitely getting stronger! I may not outlast and keep up with the DVD's pace... but I am doing so much better than last week. Oddly enough, even though the burn gets so crazy sometimes, I have actually looked forward to working out in the past few days! Pretty awesome, huh? :) I think this is huge progress for me!

Not going to lie though: around day 8 or so, I was so ready to quit! But I learned something: I cannot do this alone. So, I began to watch inspirational videos.

These two videos helped me soooo much! I don't know how they went above and beyond they physical capabilities and now have the amazing bodies that they do! It's pretty amazing and just absolutely fascinating. Take a look:


I absolutely how sincere and genuine she was. She wasn't ashamed. Loved this video. It really cheered me up last week.


Talk about seriously doing the impossible. If this man can do it, I definitely know that I can! So inspired by him. God is awesome!

Both these videos helped me realize that this is not going to be an easy journey... I realized that I will not only be sweating but will also be having tears because working for something involves me confronting the obstacles that are stopping me from getting to where I want--and the biggest obstacle is me! Working hard and working out everyday makes me confront myself, makes me see my own weaknesses, and makes me rise up to the challenge to see if I will defeat myself/my own fears. Essentially, I am so glad I watched these videos. They really helped me realize and see that I will sweat, cry, and also heal from years of unhealthiness to get where I want... :) In Arthur's words: Just because I can't do it today, doesn't mean I can't do it some day.

Thanks for reading and stay strong Dani!!! And all of you too, lol. I'm basically cheering myself on haha. I am getting in better shape and all I have to remember now is to keep push push pushing!!!


P.S. It's weird, because whenever I lose weight (or anyone else), I can tell. And you want to know my secret? It's in my toes LOL! Weirdly enough, I see my toes everyday and know their shape and feel. A sign that I am losing weight/reshaping my body is not the scale! But it's the fact that my toes look thinner now! The skin between my big toe and middle toe is further apart and the gap is a teensy bit longer! Hehehe.... and my big toe isn't as pudgy anymore lol.

Best thing to mention: People have noticed that I look thinner!!! This includes my amazing fiance. Crazy huh?! And it was only yesterday! Day 12! LOL. I feel like I'm cheating or something since it's only been 12 days since I've been doing Insanity. But the awesome part about that is I am not cheating! I worked hard as heck these past 12 days! I've earned it. Hehehehehehhehehe!!!! *feeling extremely giddy*

I'm just going to keep pushing myself. :D