Just want to start over...

I've been humiliated in many ways. I've had my pride broken down... and I am so happy that in spite of all this, I just want to be a good person. I know saying "good" is so vague, so let me describe it. Good, as in a forgiving person. A person that is able to live above her circumstances, but being real with them at the same time. Someone that can truly be herself and love those around her. Someone that does not have to live in fear, but someone that can live in freedom. Yeah, those are some of the things that I want.

I don't want to live enslaved and burdened by my past mistakes. But hopefully I can live acknowledging my weaknesses and function healthily in spite of them. :)

I just thank you God for loving me in spite of the things I do, good or bad. Thank you for teaching me and humbling me. And to those that have hurt me, I love you and I forgive you. I am sorry if I hurt you too. Pride is such a big fear that I trusted and hid behind. I'm sorry.

In memory of...

I'm losing some very special people in my life. I didn't think things would end this way. But like I said before, pride has no room for reconciliation.

One sunset on anger, a sunrise of hurt.
Minutes of confusion, hours of doubt.
Days of questions, weeks of silence.
Months of sorrow, years without you.
I visit what I had with these special people.
They are no longer with me.
Here's to you my loves.
In memory of you.