Hosea's wife: Gomer

I've been "trying" to read that book. It's pretty interesting. I'm also reading a commentary/study of it by Charles Lee Feinberg. It was copyrighted in the 40s. I know, crazy huh?

Hosea is so interesting. To go deeper into it, man. The Lord has been showing to me over and over that he is a God of love and justice. Law, truth, love, grace all go together. It was great.

I think the only thing I really don't want to be scared about is that sigh, I don't want to just read the Word to feel good; to make me have the self-righteous attitude. Who knows. I need to definitely keep reminding myself that I cannot be saved by doing "good" deeds of simply reading the Bible and etc.

All of this is a process though.

Ok! I will stop trying to be so ...dodgy. I need to start being more honest with my writing and not just writing what I think is the right thing, then taking it back and contrasting myself... I think. Haha. There I go again. Or am I already writing honestly this way?

Anyway, I feel like I need to stop listening to Brooke Fraser's CD. But I realy enjoy listening to it when I don't listen to it a lot. It is like a dedication to my lover. Whom is obviously Christ. However, a girl can't help but think about a potential "someone". I really enjoy her CD. It's kinda all over the place a little.

Which brings me to my next topic. i have no idea if I will ever get married. Like into a relationshiop. I've never really thought of it that way. I always thought of myself of like, "yeah, maybe i'll get married one day." but the other day, I finally started thinking "Wow, maybe I will remain single all my days." Twas a good process dealio to ponder on.

Sigh.

My initial intention of coming on here tho: falling back in love with Him.

I'm interested in going back and reading the whole commentary book about how Gomer fell back in love with Hosea; like how Israel will fall back in love with Yahweh. I really want to too! But... I don't know. I need to take this slowly. I learned so much about the context of what Hosea is trying to write about. Man... tis crazy... just how he prophecizes about Jezreel, and so on.

My life will be/shall be/is a love song to Him. He is so good to me.

I hope to be able to go to church tomorrow. :( I'm a bad Christian. My brother is supposedly joining the church officially. We'll see how that goes.